Unless you become as a little child...
Beset with many tasks and sensing myself sliding into a feeling of being overburdened, I was drawn to an earlier journal entry-- a prayer that began this way:
“Hold onto the sense you are receiving,” I hear that word this morning Dear Lord. You have taken me back to remembering my sense of things as a little child:
· I didn’t worry about shelter, home, or food, or having a place to sleep.
· Things may have been changing all around, there was a war going on, but I felt okay—that everything was being taken care of.
· And, it wasn’t my responsibility—it was in the hands of others and my parents didn’t put those burdens on me.
And You say to me, Dear God “Unless you become as a little child, you shall not enter the kingdom of Heaven.” I probably don’t have the exact words, but that is what I remember. Today I see a particular meaning for me in being a “little child”, and that is having that “sense” that everything is being taken care of—the world, all of us, are in Your hands, your Loving Hands, and you do not burden us with that which we cannot do. Rather, You teach us to listen with our hearts, from our unifying central core, so that we may move with You, doing, taking care of that which You have placed before us, given to us, as our responsibility. We learn in our teenage to young adult process to go from outer controls to inner controls. We meet the challenges of our calling. You have called me to a holy Mother. I am formed in motherhood and I have that gift to offer, mothering where it has been lacking as Father Flanagan “fathered” boys who had missed good fathering-- protection and guidance, provision and modeling. So today, Dear Lord, I willingly move as Mother—nurturing, guiding, always caring, loving and letting go so my sons and daughters may grow. I was moved by the recent penguin story on Public TV’s “Nature”—how the parent penguins move away, longer and longer distancing, so the growing young will learn how to find them, and in the process, the young penguins develop physical strength that prepare them for life on their own. You, Dearest Father, Brother Jesus, Holy Spirit, sometimes appear to be far away. Yet you are present, teaching us, teaching me, how to seek and find so that I may be nourished by You. And in the process, my spirit is strengthened, preparing me for what lies ahead. Thank you, Dear Father that all is in Your Hands; Thank you, Dear Jesus, for teaching us by Your Life and dying, the Way, the Truth and Life; Thank you, Dear Holy spirit, for moving our hearts and empowering us to express them for building up the body, the kingdom, the place where God is at home. Thank you for showing me what it means for me to become as a little child.
Now and forever,
As I listen, I hear the Lord say to me:
Beloved of My Heart,
Yes, as you are free of bitter roots and regrets, you are able to sense my protective, caring, teaching, guiding, providing presence—LOVE, all works of love. I have prepared you as a loving Mother—you wanted to be a Sister, and I have formed you as Mother. Mother superior! What a good laugh you are having over that one! I show you the path to life, fullness of joy in My Presence and bliss forever at My Right Hand.
Stay with Me, beloved, as I stay with you. Remember My words:
“I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you so that you walk in my statutes, observe my ordinances, and keep them.” (As did Jesus) Ezekiel: 36.26
“We must consider how to rouse one another to love and good works.” (Hebrews 19.24)
Jesus said, “To the one who has something, more will be given.” (Mark 4.25) The more you are open to the word of God, the more you receive. God does not hold back!
I love you, Dear Heart, now and forever,