Today’s Gospel : Mark 5:1-20
Jesus and the Healing of the Garasene Demoniac
After reading today’s
gospel, I feel a little light entered my struggling mind. I tend to perseverate on thinking things
through and self-examination. A little examining
can be good as in a nightly examen, as in the St Ignatius fashion. But a lot of self-examination in an endless
loop can be harmful to self. Isaiah said
it well (Is 59:7-8): Their thoughts are destructive thoughts,
plunder and ruin are on their highways.
The way of peace they know not, and there is nothing that is right in
their paths; Their ways they have made
crooked, whoever treads them knows no peace.” I think this may be, in the end, selfish and
prideful to spend so much time looking at yourself, so I’m always looking for
ways to end my mind looping and get on with life for Christ. That’s why today the story of Jesus healing
the Garasene Demoniac is so hopeful , a story of recovery from a seemingly impossible
situation. Here’s a brief paraphrase of
this poor man’s problem:
A demoniac in the pagan territory on
the “other side of the sea” immediately met Jesus as he stepped out of the
boat. The haunted man dwelt among tombs,
a lonely and isolated place, unrestrained by others. Those others had tried to shackle him with
chains and handcuffs, yet the haunted man “pulled the chains apart and smashed
the shackles,” so strong was the effects of the unclean spirits. No human restraint could hold him. In his freedom he ran around his lonely tombs
and hills, crying out and bruising himself with stones.
In this I see a
reflection of my inner turmoil, the lost and lonely state of mind I’ve been
in. Not that I feel possessed by demons,
but that that shackle and bondage of my life I’ve been trying to break or
understand, leaves me running around crying and continually bruising myself
with rocks of self recriminations, doubt, guilt and sin(multiple recriminations
feel “Legion,” the name of the demon inside haunted man). I try to resolve these meanderings of the lonely
hills and tombs by my own power (or with advice of spouse or friend) but they
seem to keep going, no human power is going to resolve it.
Catching sight of Jesus
from far away, the demoniac runs up to Jesus, bowed down and “shouted at the
top of his voice,” “What have you to do with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High
God? I adjure you by God, do not torment
me!”
Then out of the sea (the
ancient place of primordial chaos) arrives my savior, Jesus, who comes to my lonely
and pagan territory within my unsettled mind.
I suppose that being a child of God, he’s always there but I just have
too many clouds in my interior castle to really see him or feel his
presence. This haunted man recognizes Jesus
immediately, hurriedly approached him and prostrated himself before Jesus…maybe
I need to do more of this? Recognizing a
power greater than self perhaps will help me recover? (I think this is the first step in the AA
process! Another avenue for healing!) Jesus came to this man, already calling for
the demon to come out of him. The man
didn’t first ask for healing. Certainly,
Jesus was aware of this man’s needs and provided for his care and healing as he
came upon the demoniac in the lonely tombs of his life. What an awesome idea, that the Lord knows us
and wants us well even before we ask it of him.
And Jesus can heal us even when we ourselves are stuck in the mind loop
of self recriminations and can’t break out (or don’t want to break out??!)
The story continues
with Jesus sending the unclean spirits into the swine herds in the area, then
the pigs run off the cliff into the sea, back to the place of chaos. As a result, the man regained his right mind
and is clothed! How astounding a healing
as indicated by the reaction of the town’s people: fear!
I suppose an observer might be brought to fear, given that a greater power
had to overcome unclean spirits whose effects were so terrible and hopeless on
the man. But as we know Jesus, who came
with love, compassion and pity for us poor human beings, he came not for destruction
but for good. Jesus’ own life story demonstrated
the best practice for battling temptations of the devil: One
does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes forth from the mouth
of God. ( Mt 4:4) So here are a few helpful words of God from the Prophets which
are so comforting:
Jer 30:17 For I will restore you to health; of your
wounds I will heal you, says the Lord.
Jer31:25 For I
will refresh the weary soul; every soul that languishes I will replenish.
Is 40: 28-31 Do you not know or have you not heard? The Lord is the eternal God, creator of the
ends of the earth. He does not faint nor
grow weary, and his knowledge is beyond scrutiny. He gives strength to the fainting; for the
weak he makes vigor abound. Though young
men faint and grow weary, and youths stagger and fall, They that hope in the
Lord will renew their strength, they will soar as with eagles’ wings; They will
run and not grow weary, walk and not grow faint.
Is 44:18-19 Remember not the events of the past, the
things of long ago consider not; See, I am doing something new!
Is 44:25 It is I, who wipe out, for my own sake, your
offenses, your sins I remember no more.
Is 58:15 For thus says he who is high and exalted,
living eternally, whose name is the Holy One:
On high I dwell, and in holiness, and with the crushed and dejected in
spirit, to revive the spirits of the dejected, to revive the hearts of the
crushed.
The story of the
Garesene Demoniac ends with Jesus sending the healed man out on a mission,
proclaiming what the mercy of the Lord has done. Jesus heals us for mission, which is simply
to proclaim his glorious love to others, to witness to his strength and power
over seeming impossible situations and states of mind, and to give hope to
others on this journey of life, using God’s own words of wisdom. In conclusion, I think the best way to put on
the mind of Christ and release our minds from the broken record inside our own
mind is to read the word of God. Read it
for healing, look up those passages which bring you healing and comfort, for
that is what God wishes for us: Peace,
love and healing so that we can continue to praise him for this glorious
salvation and share his love with others!
Peace! Janet
Janet, you reminded me of something about "guilt" that is important. There is such a thing as unhealthy guilt, in which our conscience convicts us of sin (real or imagined), but does NOT lead us to seek reconciliation with God—or, if we honestly asked for God’s forgiveness, does NOT allow us to believe that we’re truly forgiven. Scrupulosity is a type of unhealthy guilt. But after guilt has caused us, humbly and sincerely, to Seek God’s forgiveness, it has served its purpose and is no longer needed or appropriate.
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Blessings, Deacon Paul
Thanks Deacon Paul for putting a name to the problem! I think I read similar info in the Catholic Catechism on the sacrament of Reconciliation. I will look this up as living a life of guilt is not God's plan, I'm sure! Thanks!
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